Work on how you ARE as a person. Not how you APPEAR. You might fool everyone for a while but it all catches up in the end... and you can't fool yourself. If you want to be an artist, work towards the type of hard working artist you want to be.
Sometime somewhere I slipped from that hard working artist who can forfeit meals and sleep to draw and paint, to just an apparition of the artist I once was. Am I dead beyond resurrection?